The first kind of honesty is honesty with myself. If I am honest with myself, there need be no situation in which I am not honest with others.
If someone does not believe me, if someone distrusts me, perhaps it is a sign that I need to check myself. Instead of blaming them, I should realise this, and look where I have gone wrong.
Honesty does not mean simply speaking your mind. Honesty means to be very clear about everything going on inside you. Where there is honesty, feelings become pure and clean.
When we have the virtue of honesty, there will be clarity reflected in our words; they will be filled with the power of truth, and spoken with ease and without hesitation.
Think before you speak and choose your words with care. Flavour your conversation with vibrant words and expressions. Heighten your perception and live a rich and vivid existence.
Thought for reflection: Genuine honesty cultivated within you is what will reach out and touch others.
"Be nice to your siblings. They are your past and possibly will stuck for you in the future as well."
"Friends come and go. Hold on to those precious few."
"Do not waste your time in jealousy. In the life race, sometimes you are ahead, sometimes you are behind. It is a long race. In the end, you will be competing only with yourself."
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." - Maya Angelou
"Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it" - Swedish Proverb
"The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference." - Elie Wiesel
"The better I get to know men, the more I find myself loving dogs." - Charles de Gaulle
"Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere." - Gleen Turner
"Don't be so humble - you are not that great." - Golda Meir
"To escape criticism, do nothing, say nothing, BE NOTHING." - Elbert Hubard
"If you judge people, you have no time to love them." - Mother Teresa
One year ago, Ah Bien was this cute, obedient little dog. Isn't she adorable?
This is my niece. This picture was taken a day after she was born. She weighted 3.95kg. LOL.
It is very interesting to observe the procedure of taking care of a baby. For example, we are ordered to only say negative things to the baby because it is believed that the opposite will happen instead. So, I have fun in calling her - NAUGHTY, UGLY, DARK.
And therefore, in many years to come, she will be obedient, pretty and fair. If the old saying is true la... -.-
Hello, I am your auntie. I am your very young auntie. :-p
Anyway, it has been three months since I last saw you. I was in KL completing my last semester in my degree. I looked forward to come back and see you. You have definitely grown since I last saw you! Your mother told me that you weight 3.2kg already. Be good in there now and wait patiently for the right time for you to come out, ok?
When I first touched you, I felt a rush of love in my body system. I have fallen in love with you without even seeing you yet! You will have so many people loving you in this life, so make us all proud!Hihi...no, I wasn't kicking you. It was just a random photoshot.
I was really excited waiting for your arrival. There will be much to see and learn. There will be much pain and love too.I am amazed by the wonderful way you are created.
This is your uncle. He loves you unconditionally as well!
Other than looking forward to see you, I was looking forward to see Ah Bien too, your mother's pet dog. Ah Bien doesn't remember me well after three months not seeing her. :-( However, Ah Bien is one retarded, stupid and funny dog. You would enjoy playing with her.
There is another pet dog too called Lucky. This dog is friendly to everyone, including strangers so he is useless in protecting the house. However, you should be wary of strangers. The world nowadays is dangerous and not safe. Oh, by the way, on that day, it was Mothers' Day. When you come out, you must remember this important day and treat you mother nicely. Your mother, your uncle and me planned to buy a cake for dinner for your grandmother. Your grandmother is great. I am proud to have her as my mother. Happy Mothers' Day, mom!
Missing you already. Can't wait to hug you. See you soon.
Now is the exam week. It is the time when people should bury their noses in their books.
Because *some people* have been telling me not to disturb them during exam week, I bought dozens of instant noodles, expecting lonely lunches and dinners.
Those dozens of instant noodles are still in my cupboard.
I should know earlier that they need to eat too despite busy with their studying. So I ended up still going out to have lunch or dinner with them.
Anyway, these few days I stayed in the library. It had been very hot days lately, and my hostel room is not conducive enough for me to study, to sleep, or to play computer games.
So I stayed the whole day in the library. With the makciks. The air conditioner is a blessing during hot days.
So there were times when we were too boring in the library. Or a sudden craving for munching stuff.
We 'seludup' food into the library though it is not allowed.
We played simple games when we were bored studying.
Today is damn hot again. I miss the library.
p/s There were some matters that had been bothering me for days. During one of the laughing sessions with the 'makciks', I suddenly realised that I should be enjoying the present, and not the past. So damn all those memories. It is the present that matters.
I spend the whole day in the library today studying for the coming exam.
Yes, I am proud of myself. :-p
I went with Brenda at 10am. And stayed until the library almost closed.
I was in deep concentration studying when I heard Brenda started to mumble to herself. That is normal since I know that different people have different learning styles. Then, I started to pay attention to what she was mumbling. My, it was interesting. :-p
Some of the stuff she mumbled.
"Oh, I see..."
"Like that.."
"Ok, ok"
"...(mumble indistinctly)..."
"let's try this over again..." followed by rigorous rubbing with an eraser.
She is very animated. LOL
She continued to mumble. "Brenda!" (calling her own name!)
"Oh, stupid!"
"Stupid me!"
At that very moment, I wished that I was not in the library.
Because it would have made me feel so good to shout at her...
"You memang stupid ma! You don't know meh? Stupid your head ah!" LOL
No offense, but that is simply the way we usually talk. Or is it the way I talk?
The last year in UKM has been the most fulfilling year in my life. I was busy running here and there - with outdoor activities, society activities and assignments. As I sat down and reflected over my experience in this one year, I am satisfied as these was the time that was most well spent in my life. Yes, definitely most well spent.
I wish I have one more year in UKM.
But I can't as I am bonded in my studies. I need to work as soon as I graduate. I would have like to continue my studies in Master full-time in UKM but this is impossible.
I wish I have one more year in UKM. I would learn more about different Chinese instruements in Orchestra Traditional UKM.
I wish I have one more year in UKM. I would join the Ballroom Dance UKM.
I wish I have one more year in UKM. I would like to serve CSS longer.
I wish I have one more year in UKM. I would like to visit the places that I have not visited yet.
I wish I have one more year in UKM. I would like to get to know more new friends through activities.
I wish I have one more year in UKM. I could not leave my crazy friends. Yet. It's too soon. It's too fast. We have just started our journey together. Our memories together are just too few and not enough.
I desperately wish I have one more year in UKM.
Because in 26 days, there are some people that I might never see again in my life. Because in 26 days, there are some people that I won't be seeing in regular basis. Because in 26 days, I am saying goodbye to the things and people that matter to me.
I know I have lots of things to do this week, but I decided to DUMP everything, and went for a trip with my crazy friends.
To Cameron Highlands.
The place that I had wanted to go ever since I was small.
Putting all the assignments and practices behind, ten of us embarked on a trip.
There were lots of sight-seeing, lots of food and lots of fun - especially at night before we went to sleep. LOL.
On Sunday late afternoon, we traveled back to Puduraya. I slept for several hours and then I woke up. Naturally, I looked out of the window, I saw the dark sky - it was raining / drizzling. And suddenly I felt an ache in my heart.
Ache for getting back to a place where works await. Ache for after having so much fun, it is HARD to get back to a normal life.
And a painful ache and sadness for knowing this could be the last trip I took with the SS group.
I have not spend enough time with you people.
You all make me a better person.
You all help me to pick up pieces of my heart and glue it back.
You all teach me to laugh all the time.
You all show me what cincai means.
You all are so DAMN generous with love and hugs.
It is hard to think and wait for the day when I know we will be seperated and I will miss you all like crazy.
I'm looking at the pile of works I have to get it done, and I sighed.
I already start studying for CA test, which is on 17 March since I won't have the time to do so next week.
I need to call some of the CSS juniors to pass the nomination forms to them. Tonight or tomorrow. And also to get the hostel form from them to pass to Joyce. Then, tonight, there's er-hu practice.
This Saturday, I am free! Must study for CA though.
Then, this Sunday, I go for an outing.
Next weekend, I go for an overnight trip.
I have to prepare for CSS fellowship on 13 March. That will includes spending time on singing practice and discussion on the flow of the fellowship.
I also need to allocate time for discussion on CA assignment. The presentation is on 12 March. Exactly on the same day, I have to do Techno presentation as well. The next morning, I have to hand in a Lesson Plan. And the full compilation of Life Science work. And at night, is the CSS fellowship, which I am in charge with.
I'm looking at my diary, almost all weekdays are packed with drama practices and er-hu practices. One will be performing on 22 March, another 31 March.
There is still a dinner function on 25 March that me and Gnet might or might not crash.
Educational Technology requires us to do posters and pictures - art things that I am not good at. Thank God for those three makciks yang willing to help.
Lastly, I need to constantly upgrade my pet in Pet Society and toughen up my guy in Mafia Wars. That needs LOTS of time!
I am just back from a two-hour meeting. I'm tired, sweaty and very sleepy. I want to bath to freshen myself up and do some work.
And then I see my pail of clothes. Clothes pile up high.
One year ago, Ah Bien was this cute, obedient little dog. Isn't she adorable?
This is my niece. This picture was taken a day after she was born. She weighted 3.95kg. LOL.
It is very interesting to observe the procedure of taking care of a baby. For example, we are ordered to only say negative things to the baby because it is believed that the opposite will happen instead. So, I have fun in calling her - NAUGHTY, UGLY, DARK.
