Saturday, February 27, 2010

Word Hurts

Several years back, someone bashed me up in her blog. It was an unpleasant experience. I still remember my feeling at that time when I first read her blog. My heart started to palpitate, cold sweats forming on my forehead and it felt like all my happiness had been sucked out from my body.

It was a horrible experience.

I promise myself never to do it on another human being.

Questions formed in my head - What are my friends gonna think when they read this? Why is she announcing to the whole wide world about this? Where am I gonna hide my face? Why can't she tell me straight about things she doesn't like about me, instead of letting me finding it through her blog?

And to realise that she knew that I was a frequent reader of her blog, she purposely intended that post to be read by me.

My sould was broken that day. And it took me years to heal.

I know, that blog is yours. You have every right to write whatever you want. You can be loud, you can be free. I am sure you will mention that freedom of speech has been bestowed on you.

Yes, it is all bout what you want, what you need.

In the comfort of blogging, one starts to forget, words hurt.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

What Is Happening To Me?

The coming Chinese New Year holiday does not excite me.

Things lately in life, despite going great, no longer excite me.

I can't visualize my future. I no longer know what I want, where I will be.

I am scared of losing the fighting spirit in me. Work is, well, just work. Where is the passion?

There are times when I would not mind if things happen to me, because I no longer have anticipation in my life. 

How is it possible that I can sink so low?

What is happening to me?


 
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