The coming Chinese New Year holiday does not excite me.
Things lately in life, despite going great, no longer excite me.
I can't visualize my future. I no longer know what I want, where I will be.
I am scared of losing the fighting spirit in me. Work is, well, just work. Where is the passion?
There are times when I would not mind if things happen to me, because I no longer have anticipation in my life.
How is it possible that I can sink so low?
What is happening to me?
First of all, happy 22nd birthday to my younger brother!! His birthday is today, 100110. Enjoy your special day to the fullest! And you are old already!!
Secondly, calling out too EdwinaHugh and an anonymous user. Both had put comments on my previous post, but I accidentally deleted their comments. I am so so so sorry. By the way, to EdwinaHugh (if you are reading this), what do you mean when you wrote in Chinese character, "Only those who speak with a smile, can take a leading role..." I don't quite understand you. :-D
Well, the first week of schooling in 2010 has ended. Life has been great throughout. But it has only been the first week. More torturous and suffering weeks are going to ensued.
Anyway, I am the newly elected Guru Pengawas Harian dan Asrama. I am the newly elected Warden Asrama. I am the form teacher of a Form 4 class. I have 25 periods of teaching, Form 1, 2 and 4 English. Thursday is the most tiring one, with eight periods of teaching out of nine periods perday. There are still so many things for me to learn. And to see. And to experience.
Last night, several of my colleagues gathered and started to play cards. We had so much fun laughing at each other's silliness. Looking back, I knew it was hard to find at anywhere else, colleagues that are so fun-loving like the one I have now.
This Sunday morning, the swarms of bees at my balcony mysteriously disappeared after staying there for weeks. That is good news as I can finally access my balcony again to dry my clothes. Later, I will be going for a Mandarin lesson with another colleague of mine. He teaches me Chinese, I teach him guitar. Good barter system. :-D
The first week of January started great. I pray that it will continue.
As for me, 2009 has been one of the best year in my life. Yes, the best.
Here are the reasons why.
1. Friends and their family. 2009 is the year where I get to be closer with lots of friends that I am proud to have. 2009 is also the year where I stayed with lots of my friends at their house. This gives me the opportunity to get to know their families and lifestyles. My friends have wonderful families. Their parents always welcome me warmly to their house and are always generous with hugs. I believe strongly that good family foundation will determine what kind of a person you are. The wonderful hospitality that I had experienced - Gnet's parents and siblings, Brenda's parents and brother, Steph's parents and sister, Joyce's parents, Eileen's parents, and Connie's daddy. Thank you all. My 2009 is great, thanks to you all.
2. Sucky friends. 2009 will be the year where I remember that friendship hurts as well. Years long of friendships is destroyed with reasons that until now I do not know why. Nor do I bother to know now because it would not change anything already. However, after months of healing, I realise the experience has taught me a lot. I am grateful for the experience, I am grateful to get rid of the people that did me more harm than good and I am grateful for who I turn out to be after the incident. I am grateful that I no longer spend hours gossiping and laughing over someone's imperfect teeth. I am grateful to be able to break away from my comfort zone and enter new zones. I am grateful that I no longer play a part in discriminating people I don't like. I know I had hurt people terribly before, and in the end, I tasted my own medicine when they pushed me out. Padan muka saya. Oh well, overall it is still an enlightening experience.
3. Jalan-jalan. Oh yessssssssss, 2009 is the funnest year of all because I get to visit so so so many places. Melaka, Bukit Tinggi, FRIM, Cameron Highlands, Batu Caves, and ICG in Johor. Not to forget Miri and Sabah!! And of course, Kuala Lumpur!! I love visiting all the above places, especially when you have great company. Coming in 2010, Mount Kinabalu climb in June and definitely something will go on as well in December. Somewhere overseas perhaps? I crave for Boeing 747. ^ ^
4. Graduation. The end of my university life. The end of my six years of degree-studying. I have achieved what I have wanted academically and still get lots of fun along the way. I am glad that I do not choose to bury my nose into books and live a mundane life of studying. I study moderately and play hard. And 2009 proves that all has been worthwhile. Master study coming soon...I hope.
5. Erhu. I performed in an orchestra! On a stage! WOW. @.@ And I learned to play erhu. Another music instruments skills under my belt. *beaming
6. Alcohol consumption. 2009 is the year I am exposed to so much drinking. And also to geng makcik minum. To remember all the stupid things we do and say when we are not sober. To remember back all the things we dare to do because we are not sober.
7. Work. Yes, I am a working adult. YUCK. It sounds like such a heavy responsibility. But I do enjoy the salary that I get. I have to admit that I was surprised when I received my first posting because it was in a rural area. However, on my second day of working, I felt right at home. My immediate adaptation to a new place surprises me as well. And since my posting, I never miss home. I still love my parents of course but I wouldn't mind to live all by myself. I wouldn't mind not going back to my hometown during holidays. I am ready to start a new life by myself.
Finish studying and starting to work are definitely the highlights of 2009. These are all the things that happened in 2009 that makes my life kinda interesting. How about you?
One year ago, Ah Bien was this cute, obedient little dog. Isn't she adorable?
This is my niece. This picture was taken a day after she was born. She weighted 3.95kg. LOL.
It is very interesting to observe the procedure of taking care of a baby. For example, we are ordered to only say negative things to the baby because it is believed that the opposite will happen instead. So, I have fun in calling her - NAUGHTY, UGLY, DARK.
Hihi...no, I wasn't kicking you. It was just a random photoshot.
I was really excited waiting for your arrival. There will be much to see and learn. There will be much pain and love too.
I am amazed by the wonderful way you are created.
This is your uncle. He loves you unconditionally as well!
Happy Mothers' Day, mom!
